The First Twinges of Missing SOME Things in WNY

I can’t believe I am going to admit this aloud. Every now and then, I have this tiny little twinge of “I miss NY”. GAH! It is mostly food honestly. I was watching “How I Met Your Mother” and Robin and Barney go to Canada. They have coffee at TIM HORTANS. Barney says that it is awesome… the only good thing in Canada and all I have wanted since then is a LARGE Ice Capp with a cheddar cheese bagel. And Johnnys!! YUM! And no sub has been able to compete with a Wegmans Buffalo Chicken Wing sub. And the General Store… I want one of everything on the menu.

I also miss NY trees. I know that it weird, but the trees down here suck. They are mini and all gnarly. I like them, I just miss tall, straight Maple trees and pine trees. I haven’t seen a real tree since April 5^th. And GRASS. Oh my goodness. I didn’t realize how awesome NY grass is until I came here and tried to walk in barefeet. I LOVE going barefoot and I keep telling myself its ok to do it down here. Nope. Its not. Between pokey grass, stickers, insects, burning hot concrete and rocks I manage to injure myself. Sigh.

Im tired of driving down here. Its not scary anymore. My commute has become mundane. But its annoying though. I would love to drive somewhere without getting on a highway. Just one place. And I haven’t driven on a road that isn’t a one way since April 5^th.

I also miss Cooper Duper. A lot. :( The dogs and cat were taken from me on Sunday after we got back from Austin. I have been having trouble again the last few nights. Its so lonely and quiet without them. I have had them since the week before Memorial Day... so I have lived in the house without company, but I had gotten used to them. No one ran to meet me after work yesterday, and not one curled up with me to watch tv. :( I miss my bud Cooper.

Despite all of the above, I most definitely made the right choice to come down here. Im working on job (crazy!) and I knew that it was bad at home. Really I did. But I am realizing HOW bad and sad it was. No friends were left. None. Everyone in that town is old. It was just bad. Here is MUCH better. Astronomically better. Yeah my job isn’t my dream job…. But I like the people I work with, I make a livable wage, Im not in WNY, I kinda have a life now, and (no offense parents) Im not living at home!

The biggest difference between being home and here job wise… I am realizing how badly part-time and seasonal employers treat employees compared to here. Im not sure if this is normal or exceptionally good, but people treat other like everyone has a brain. Its amazing. I’m no longer working overtime and not getting paid for it, treated like I am an idiot (although at TJ’s I had the highest degree), and the managers here are competent. Its such a nice change!

Sunday was the trip to Austin! It was a good day. The drive was really easy! I got on a highway, got off an hour later, took a left and was on the UT campus! It was nice to see my cousin swim and she did well! We went to lunch at the Hula Hut and ate outside on the lake. It was so nice. I had been missing the WNY summer activities and eating on the deck at the casino was usually a summer staple! It was nice to see a lake too! After lunch we went Kayaking. It was a lot of fun. I got a little burnt (even though we were only out for an hour) It was fun to do something different! I was soaked at the end (its what happens when you are sharing a kayak with a 10 year old! But I got her plenty wet as well!) which felt really nice because it was HOT out. I forgot to look for a magnet so I am going to have to go back! I don’t have a magnet from San Antonio either! (if you have read any of my other blogs you will know that I collect magnets. Everytime I go to a new city I get one. If you haven’t read my other ones… I buy a magnet every time I go to a new city!) 

I just read some of my London blog. I am SO glad that I did that. I love reading it!

 Its starting I think… the Texas heat. Im still ok with it when Im at home in athletic clothes because I don’t care how much I am sweating. Im not ok with it when I trying to look halfway decent but Im just melting instead! Laurie you are right… Texas is as hot as hell :)

Im pretty sure I have a problem… I was perusing Amazon at work for a few minutes. I was adding everything to my cart for fun and clicked to see what the damage would be. I had $460 worth of BOOKS that I wanted. Books. I think I need to find a library. Pronto!

I am forgetting so many things but I can’t remember them. Tonight is football (woo) I have 4 more games left in my career. I am giving it up and sticking with softball I think. (although I am sucking it up in softball. Seriously I look like I have never played before. I used to own that outfield… now Im getting owned)

I miss you all. Maybe Ill see some of you in Sept?

New Experiences

AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!! It has been a crap week at work. Crap. Nothing about it went well or smoothly. That (Unfortunately) is not an exaggeration. A job that should have taken me all day on Wednesday, took me all day Wednesday, all day Thursday AND all day Friday with a little more that I have to finish on Monday. Its tedious and horrible. Blah.

This week has also been a week of adventures and new experiences. (I LOVE adventures!) My first new experience of the week occurred on Wednesday. Im not sure why but nasty, scary, creepy, crawly beings like my bathroom floor. Im not ok with this. The biggest reason that I am against their preference of my bathroom floor is that I ALWAYS discover these nasty visitors in the morning, around 6:30am when I am bleary eyed and disoriented. I was lucky with this visitor. I was close to stepping on him because I didn’t notice him until I was very very close.

I stroll in the bathroom on my relaxing work from home day. I was loving life and minding my own business when I notice a dark shape against the white bathroom rug. What the? I get really close (that was dumb) lean down (again dumb) and freaked out. A scorpion. ARGH! No no no! One thing that the spider taught me… get a solo cup and get it fast. I sprint (as fast as I can when Im all bleary eyed and lethargic) and grabbed a red cup, plopped it over him, and put a package of shower curtain rings on top. This is how he stayed until 7pm-ish. Not touching that. Eventually curiosity got the better of my and I lifted the cup up to see how my buddy was doing….

I didn’t know that scorpions are FAST. OMG! He DARTED to and fro. I absolutely freak out and leap on the step stool by the shower and scream. I didn’t dare get close to him with that tail and pinchers. Argh. But then he started making a dash for under my wardrobe where all of my shoes are. I heard that they like to live in shoes so I scream “Oh HELLLLL no” (excuse my French) and slam the cup over his head, and put the package of shower curtain rings back on top. I exhale in relief and look up… the cat is sitting on the bed with a look of complete disbelief on her face….. like that was the craziest, most pathetic showdown that she had ever seen. She was probably right.

I would like to say that I bucked up, got a piece of paper and transported it outside. Alas no. Instead I ripped the cup back off, stomped on it in victory, scooped it up and threw it and the cup away. (Ok ok… that is a complete lie) Jared came on Saturday and squished it (while I was a comfortable distance away), threw it in the cup and threw everything in the trash for me. Im grateful I have connections to scorpion killers.

My other adventure was my first ever oil change. Dad always changed my oil at home so I haven’t ever had to bring my car anywhere. Now that I think about it… I haven’t ever had to bring my car to a garage for any reason. Dad always did it for me. So I was off to Walmart for an oil change. I find the auto cetnre just fine, walk in and go up to the desk. The cashier girl was really nice but the guy was a bit of a sexist. He acted like I knew nothing. I tell him that my car needed an oil change and the conversation went something like this:

Mechanic: Ok… Well what is the make and model of car. Do you know it?

Me: Do I know it? Yes…. It is a Toyota Yaris

Mechanic: OK are you sure?

Me: Yeah… pretty sure

Mechanic: ok… The standard oil change comes with up to 5 quarts of oil. Do you think you will need more than that?

Me: Ummm no. it’s going to take like 3

Mechanic: Mmhmm well I guess we can charge you for the additional oil when you pick the car up.

Me: Its going to need like 3 quarts… not 5

Mechanic: yeah… well you are all set and we will call you when its ready.

Attitude!! I looked up the oil when I got home… Lucy needed 3.5. BAM. I rocked it. Walmart was really fast though. It took them like 20 minutes and bam they called my cell. It was speedy and really easy!

Tomorrow I have ANOTHER adventure… Im off to Austin for the day to watch my cousin swim. It should be a good day! Im driving up myself so hopefully I don’t get lost! I should be fine though. If I can handle Europe, I can handle driving an hour up an hour.

It is starting to get warmer here. Everytime I get into the car I think of Laurie saying “Texas??? Anna… its hot as hell there!” Well she is right. Its getting to be HOT. I think the air conditioning makes it even worse. I FREEZE indoors and walk outside and get hit with a HEAT wave. Its horrible. I shiver all day at work. People bring in blankets. WHY IS IT SO COLD??

Ok its 10:30pm and Im getting sleepy. I have more to say but Ill write tomorrow or Monday and fill you all in more. I miss you all and Congrats to my CHQ friends for making it over hump day. More than halfway done!

Thunder, Princesses, and Nostalgia

“You can never get a cup of tea large enough or a book long enough to suit me.” ― C.S. Lewis

Today’s quote doesn’t even need explanation. It’s just so true . Except if said book is Johnny Tremaine. Goodness that book is horrible!

Ok Im a little over everything being Bigger in Texas. There was a thunderstorm last night. When I say that I mean a biggest, loudest thunderstorm I have ever lived through. The house literally shook with each thunder clap. I tried to count the time between the lightning and thunder and I couldn’t. It was so intense. I was ok with it… until the power went out. Im all alone in a big spooky house, in the middle of blinding thunderstorm, in complete dark. Not cool. The dogs were so good. They didn’t whine or bark at all. The power was still off when I got up at 6:30 so that was an interesting experience. I got dressed/ready in complete darkness. I had the flashlight on my phone, but couldn’t find a real flashlight. I should probably inquire where they live at some point. The storm woke me at midnight, but I fell right back to sleep until 1:30 and when the power went out at 2 I was wide awake until 3. Not ok with not being able to see except from lightning flashes. I need my nightlight in the hallway to stay illuminated thank you very much.

I have been missing NY a little this past week. On Saturday I was lucky and had a good hour and a half phone call from one of my favorite people. Man it made me miss home. (I cant believe Im saying that either) Then this week I have had my pod on shuffle at work and man do I have HORRIBLE stuff on that thing. I promised myself that I was going to go through and delete the crap ones. Then Saving Jane came on… and I instantly thought of Alex and how much he hated her music. EVERY day on the way to school he complained. Without fail. And Erin, Kirsten and I would play it over and over. Which lead me to thinking about driving him to school everyday and almost killing him with a snowplow but every time (or that my car would fall apart and kill us) he brought it up and told me I was a horrible I reminded him that without me he would have died riding with Peter. Im not sure I can get rid of these bad songs. They instantly bring me back.

Speaking of missing home… Ashville Days (or more appropriately “Day”) are on Saturday. Im not going to miss the parade, or the bedraces, or the garage sales, but the FIREWORKS. They are the best.  There sure are some characters that show up to watch, but it is so fun. July 4^th fireworks were decent at Lakewood, but the Ashville Days ones were the BEST. Sigh

OK I have made an executive decision. More people where cowboy hats and boots in good ole WNY then the Texans in Texas wear. Granted I am in a city down here, but there are so many people who wear them at home. And no one wears them in SA. (San Antonio). Its disappointing… and just shows how country WNY is! The place I come from sure is…. Special.

Last night was my second night off in a row… and I was LAZY. I watched two Disney movies while I was working on other things. (yeah I’m not sure why I picked Disney. I wanted to watch Harry Potter but it was on Blu-ray and the Playstation is broken at the moment)  It was actually pretty interesting. Take Cinderella for instance (first movie chosen). All of the decorations are pretty Rococo. Are they in France? Is it the 1800’s?? Their clothes are pretty good for that era, and so is the furniture etc. I didn’t really have any problems with Cinderella… she is a little dumb and way to willing to clean stuff, but all in all it was ok. Oh besides that the fact that Prince Charming says two things in the entire movie and she is in “love”. He asks her name and how he will find her again. That’s it… Come on Cinderella. One dance and two questions isn’t enough to marry the guy. Just saying.

Sleeping Beauty was my FAVORITE Disney movie and Phillip was my favorite Prince. (he at least talks and has a cool red riding cape thing)The part I never caught before is that Phillip’s dad says that it is the 14^th century. So its 1300’s?? Definitely hadn’t ever picked up on that before! That kinda explains why everyone is way ok with Sleeping Beauty being in love at 16. She is a little dumb too, and her feet at way to small. But I guess she is still my favorite, and Snow White is still the dumbest.

Discoveries and a Challenge

“One of the advantages of being disorganized is that one is always having surprising discoveries.” ― A.A. Milne

That is my new quote of the day section. I haven’t been putting pictures up like I did in my London and Rome blog so Im doing quotes for a bit instead. I thought that was appropriate for me right now. I haven’t been organized for awhile and have definitely had surprises. But hey…. Honestly who doesn’t love surprises?

Today was BLAH. That basically sums it up. The night was really relaxing though. I being lazy and Im not ashamed of it at all. A girl can have one night off a month right?

I was driving home today and it hit me… when I was in Rome and London the best way to learn about the city was getting lost. Here I was too scared to get lost because the traffic sucks and I didn’t want to get stuck in the wrong lane and end up in Mexico. (that is an extreme exaggeration but you get my point) So today on the way home I got off of 281 two exits early (crazy I know) BUT I found goldmines. Who knew that Starbucks, HEB (grocery store), Michaels, Chuys (a restaurant), and a liquor store (I need to check it out. Maybe they have NYS wine?!!) were all on the way home. Who. Knew? I love finding new stuff.

I forgot to mention something in my blog yesterday under the burning myself category.  I wrote awhile ago that I spilled water all over my desk and thankfully Crystal saved the day with her stash of napkins. Well Monday she wasn’t here and I moved up in the spilling things world… I spilled hot tea all over my desk and my dress. Oh it was fun. Hot green tea dripped onto my lap, seeped under my laptop, and moistened my Lego Big Ben. The hardest part about working in a cube farm, is that you cant make all of the reaction you would. I would have liked to pushed back in my chair, stood up, and yelled. Instead I got to say “shoot” in a whisper, sneak to the bathroom to get paper towels, and inconspicuously soak up my tea. One of these days Im going to do something and react how I will like to without thinking. I just know it.  

I updated my money spreadsheet yesterday. Talk about depressing. Student loans are rough. I am challenging myself… Im not buying an article of clothing until 9/15. Two month=no clothes. The only exception is ONE pair of athletic shorts because I cant get through a week of working out without running out. So one cheap pair of shorts and that it is. Im bribing myself with a book I want off of amazon. If I make it Im buying a $20 book. Better then spending more than that on clothes that I do not need.

I am tired of not having all of my belongings. I am always wanting something that is in NY. You know how all I want to do is watch the Great Gatsby? Well I don’t have it. Same with Les Mis. I wanted to wear a shirt that was home too. At HWS I was always missing something, then Rome (I was living out of a suitcase for 3 months. Granted it was a large suitcase), then London (living out of 2 suitcases) and now San Antonio (living out of a carload… but Lucy is a small car). I want to go home just to get things (And eat Johnnys!!!)

I miss everyone!

Nothing All That Epic

Oh my goodness.. I have a night off. What is this weird concept?  I was supposed to have a softball game but a water broke (or something along those lines) so I get to stay home! I am so excited. I watched the Lego movie (the end made it worth while), did a whole bunch of chores and am now watching the second Hobbit movie. (J.R.R Tolkien is turning over in his grave. Im sure) I am also making a cake. It doesn’t count because its from a box. I have learned my lesson from my last one though. I made it as a 13x9 so I can make it in my pyrex and have an air TIGHT lid on it so it wont go stale in two days. Im most likely going to eat all of it. I have some walking to do for sure!

Its eerie outside (which is why Im inside watching the Hobbit) There are probably 50 crows hanging out around the house. Its either going to be like Alfred Hitchcock’s the Birds or Edgar Allen Poe’s The Raven. Not sure which is worse as The Birds doenst have a definitive ending. If one of them comes rapping, rapping on my door, I shall freak out.

This week started out pretty busy. I was tired from the weekend of parties and not sleeping. Monday was Bday dinner for Jared (I think that he liked his Venus Fly Trap) Last night was football… I cant believe I am going to say this ( I really cant) but it was kinda fun. I caught a pass for a touchdown and actually knocked a ball down so my girl wouldn’t score a touchdown. Perhaps I am NFL material after all ;) We won 25-12 so perhaps that is why it was fun. And my girls were slow so it was a nice easy game. Oh I did miss a completely catchable ball. But whatever… didn’t let in a touchdown!

Today was my WFH (Work From Home. Accenture likes acronyms.) I didn’t put real clothes on, didn’t match my pj pants to my shirt, didn’t brush my hair, and didn’t put on makeup. I LOVE Wednesdays. I still do work! I just don’t have to look presentable. It is great.

On Monday I had a brand new experience! I burnt my tongue on a Skittle. Yup. A Skittle. I bet you don’t think its possible, but anything can bake in a car in Texas. I ran some errands on lunch and picked up a bag which I proceeded to leave it in my car. Me being as smart as I am saw them after work (3 hours later) and threw some in my mouth. It hurt. Other things that melt in Texas cars… chapstick, pens, and plastic Ted Baker bags. (The bag was actually way cool when it was melty. It was so and pliable. It cooled down and then got all stiff again. I also continue to burn my face on my sunglasses. You would think a girl would learn…

San Antonio… I like it but Im not in love. It’s a city, but it doenst feel like one. It feels like Buffalo. I remember when Sister lived in Buffalo I said I would never live somewhere that the driving was that busy… and here I am. I miss back country roads. More than I did in London. London was so exciting and I could hope on public transportation. Here its city but different. I need to walk the ranch more and feel like Im in the country.

I love having the dogs and cat here at the house with me. The cat is crazy. It sits in the sink to drink water, and eats my hair. She is actually chewing on it as I type. She sits behind me on the couch and chews my hair. The dogs and I are best buds. I give them treats so they like me. Its easy.

The World Cup is over. Its pathetic but I don’t know what Im going to do with my life now! It was something I loved that I could get into. I think I need to find a hobby (a cheap one) I don’t have a passion anymore and I need to find one.

My job… blah. There are some days/moment that I would rather be at Chaut. I know. Shocking. But Im telling people that their hours are charged to the incorrect code 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. I miss Laurie and my pre-season CHQ crew. The phones kinda sucked, but I knew what I was doing, and got to hang out with awesome people. I do like the people at work. They make it good. Its just the job itself that is depressing.

Ok I am completely out of things to say. Perhaps my next post will be more exciting??

I miss you all!

The Morning Gods are Against Me

 

This morning was rough. Not the normal “I cant get up” rough, but a weird rough. I didn’t sleep last night. Shocker. It took forever to fall asleep and I kept waking up.  It didn’t help that every time I woke up I felt my softball wound stick to the sheets. Ewww. The dogs started barking at 5am… argh. I had a crazy dream about being in a cave and shooting wolves. Yeah. Shooting wolves. Not weird at all. Anyways so when my alarm went off I was just as tired as when I went to bed the night before. (ok FINE I admit.. I didn’t get up in time) I went to let the dogs out and they were CRAZY. They jumped all over and SPRINTED out the door as soon as I opened it. I hope that they had just seen a raccoon or something on the porch last night. That is what Im going with.

I walk in the bathroom and look in the mirror.. I have chocolate ALL over my face. All over. What is going on?? Then I remember I ate a piece of cake after I brushed my teeth last night (gross I know but I was hungry and lazy) So I wash my face, continue to get ready and go over to make my bed… there is chocolate EVERYWHERE. Not on my pillow where my chocolate covered face was, but at shoulder height. I look down, chocolate on my pjs. Wow. Seriously?

After I am chocolate free, dressed and ready to go I head out to the kitchen and write a note to the family saying that they can have a piece of cake. (I don’t need to get the entire thing) I wrote my note and my pen exploded. ALL over my hands. They are now (a very pleasant) blue. Both hands. Ok… I take the recycling down to the street and I kept feeling water hit my feet. Weird, but I couldn’t figure it out. I get to work and pull out my landyard… its SOAKED. The entire thing is wet. I LOVE putting soggy things around my neck. Especially when I don’t know what it making it wet. Such a Joy. I look in my bag on the back half (behind my planner) is soaking wet. No idea what from. I walk into work with a cold, clammy neck and my feet are hurting (so is the rest of my body by the way. Softball and walking has killed it) I look down only to discover that my flats are COVERED in stickers. It took me a solid 3 minutes to realize that I must have gotten then when I rolled out the recycling container (it lives in a patch of tall grass right inside the gate) Argh. I haven’t even dealt with them yet. I threw my heels on when I got to my desk and shoved the vicious things in the back corner of my desk.

Lasts night was fun! I went over to the family’s house and I beat my aunt and uncle home so I got to hang with my cousin for a bit. Then we were allowed to build Legos until dinner (I just re-read that and I sound like Im 5) We are building the Cinema set… omg so cool. I want the Parisan café SO badly!!!! Its all cute and French with little croissants. (Delee maybe you could buy it for your classroom and Ill assemble for you??) We then got distracted from building by surfing the Lego site and we wanted everything. They have some awesome sets (Tower Bridge, The Parisan Café, a Mini Cooper, and the Fairgrounds) I want all of those. The cinema is really cute though. And the Town Hall looks cool… I just need the entire city!

We hung out until dinner where I managed to fling my chicken across my plate, down my shirt and onto my shorts. I had a nice smear of BBQ down my front. Classy. Then it was off on our walk. My shoe rubbed my bandaid covered softball wound so it hurt the entire time. I ended up running/walking/running with my cousin. Nothing like a 10 year old to kick your butt into gear! After the run we got to finish the first book on the Lego set. It was fun building it with everyone. Oh and I tried my first grits… I like them!

This weekend will be busy busy. I have two parties at my house. Two. So that will be interesting. I have to clean my room and mow before they happen so tonight and tomorrow morning will be busy as well!

I miss you all! (CHQ Im thinking about you guys!)

Tired therefore Overwhelmed

I don’t feel like I have anything blog worthy to say, but I haven’t written in awhile and soon the hate mail will start coming in (ahem sister...) so here I am writing a post that can put everyone asleep.

It has kinda been another rough week. Mentally AND physically this time though. I have walked Monday, Tuesday with my aunt, and played softball (more on that to follow) last night so I am tired. I go to walk right after work (she feeds me... best deal ever) but that also means I am gone from 7am-8:30pm. I come home, shower and crash into bed. I haven’t gotten anything done. My to-do list grows longer everyday. I owe people messages, emails and phone calls. I am sorry if you are one of them… Im trying. Really. Oh and this weekend I wont have time to catch up on life because I have two parties at my house this weekend. (nope not for me.) When Im tired things seem overwhelming…

Why else was this week rough??... Oh none of my electronics are working. My computer is shot. I knew that coming home from London (two years ago), my cell is 5 hours ahead time wise (not all the time.. just randomly) my car (not an electronic I know…) needs to be registered, have new plates, is filthy (means I have to go through a car wash), AND needs an oil change. Seriously? Oh and I need a Texas license. Those aren’t free. GAH! I thought I could start saving money with my big girl job! Argh. Did I mention Im tired??? (therefore overwhelmed)

I officially had to give up my soccer team. I knew it was going to happen, but I was in complete denial. Sigh. It was hard. And still is. They are in good hands though.

Speaking of soccer… I have been getting a LOT of push back from losing respect for Germany. I didn’t think it was that controversial of a statement!!! Honestly having class should always happen, no matter what the level of play. And it’s the world cup… yes I get that, but that almost made it worse. Jared claims that Brazil quitting is worse that Germany continuing to shoot. We are agreeing to disagree. Dear Germany… you have been to the semi-finals many times. Act like it. They went a little far in their humiliation.

Oh I did get going on the children immigrant issue this week too.. but if I add that to this blog post it will be too much debate for one measley entry. So perhaps another time.

I need some down time. Still haven’t watched the Great Gatsby. Or Les Mis. Or eaten a Pizza Hut Buffalo Chicken Wing Pizza… which TEXAS DOESN’T HAVE. (if I am repeating myself, I apologize) The pizza huts down here are breaking my heart.

The house… is the reason I am so tired. (not 100% as I mentioned above that I run every second of the day) Im sleeping better… as of last night. But I was also so exhausted that Im not sure it counts. Im trying to get used to it again. Trying.

I FORGOT! Yesterday was my first day of WFH (work from home). It was weird. I LOVED getting out of bed, throwing on a tee, work out capris and didn’t brush my hair. Or put on makeup. It was glorious. I even made oatmeal for breakfast.  Extra glorious. It was weird though to be all alone in the kitchen working. I still had lync so I could chat with people, but I could turn around and chat. Very weird.. I did a lot of work so I was working, but it didn’t feel like I was working.  I got to make mac and cheese for lunch, and a cake on my lunch break. Oh and I filled the pool. I got stuff done on my break. It was awesome. And I gained an extra half hour after work because I was home at 4 instead of having to drive. So nice.

After my day working at home I headed out to our PCS Happy Hour. (ok I cant get used to that. It looks like Panama Central School is having a happy hour.) Here is where the day kinda goes wrong… I had a softball game after happy hour. Yeah… I haven’t played well at ALL. Palmer would be embarrassed by me and I wouldn’t make her team on a good night. The Sangria didn’t help my cause. I didn’t do anything horrible really… except right at the end when we are losing 23-10 (yup we pulled a Brazil) and I try to turn a full-fledged swing bunt (I swung and I basically bunted it) into a home run. Yeah.. I was golden for awhile. They over threw first and that means Im on third, but I decided to milk it and get home. I think I was safe because the guy was expecting me to slide, ( was expecting to slide either. Instinct just took hold) but the ump called me out. We were down by too much to fight him. So I have a scrape on my shin… a good one. And the top of my ankle is oozing liquids. Putting in the clutch rips it open every time. Argh.I am still missing Palmer at my softball games. After I do something stupid I try to think of what she would tell me becasue its way better than what my teammates tell me.

I miss you all.

Monday Already?

It feels like yesterday that I floated out of work, elated that I had three days of freedom. I dont know where those three days went! Friday started with an early morning workout session (speed walking without enough water in the Texas heat) and then it was straight off to July Fourth activites! Saturday was filled with shopping (at the outlets... even better!) I came home with some clothes and a Kate Spade purse! Today was a day of catch up... and I still havent caught up. I couldnt pay my bills because my pay hadnt been deposited yet.. and my computer has decided that it wants to cease existing. I have the blue screen of death. So frustating! Espeically since my up-to-date resume and cover letter template is on it and I was planning on tweaking it this weekend. Sigh. My phone is also deciding that it wants to difficult. Its internal clock is 5 hours ahead of central time. I have no idea what it is doing. I re-start and nothing happens, but then an hour later it is randomally ok again. What??!

Everyone moved out on me this weekend. It is weird to be alone again. Really weird. I had JUST gotten used to having everyone, and now its me, myself and I in this house. (I do have the dogs thank goodness... but no cat) Im trying not to have trouble honestly. And so far I have to keep reminding myself that I am fine. Sigh. I want everyone to come back :(

Tonight I went to Walmart to grab some things and decided that I needed some green in my life. I wandered out to the garden section and almost melted from the heat (its hot outside even at 7pm). I thought it was funny that you could buy catcus. Like real, life size, full grown catcus. The kind that go outside. They are ALL over the ranch! It was funny to me. I have never seen a full sized catcus in a pot. Just the mini ones (that mom still manages to kill) I found the orchids but it didnt seem like they were loving the Texas heat, and they were too much money so I picked out a Bonsai and named it Nigel. I have always wanted to name something Nigel, but am not sure that I could name an offspring that... so I gave it to a Bonsai. He seems happy in his home. Nothing like having to purchase a friend/company. Quite pathetic.

In an attempt to distract myself from this house, I watched a documentary on Hulu about the children of the Nazis. It was SO interesting. I haven ever heard anything about/from them before. There was a granddaughter of Goreing, grandson of Hoess, niece of Himmler, son of someone bad, and a daughter of Amon Goethe. It was all about how guilty they feel, and the daughter didnt understand what was going on when she was little so it was all about her story of realizing through the years of what her father did. Super interesting. The granddaughter of Goreing and her brother both sterlized themseleves so there wouldnt be another generation of Goreings. Intense. I watched it right before I went to Walmart which was silly because I wandered around thinking and kept having to backtrack to get things that I had forgetten. If any of you are bored watch Hitler's Children. Very thought provoking.

Im sorry that I did not blog on Wednesday. I was angry after my softball game. Yes its pathetic but I was angry. On a good note though... I have a cool jersey with my last name on it. That is pretty legit. I just wish that I could play like I used to. I dont know what is wrong with me. It looks like I have never played the sport before in my life. And I messed up my base running on Wed... that is my strong spot. Sigh. Also my batting glove that I wear under my fielding glove ripped. I was sad.. I have had it since my first day of Varsity... in eighth grade. Im having trouble throwing it away. (yes I am crazy)

I have more to say, but I am tired and it will take me a bit to fall asleep in this house so I need to head to bed. Ill write again soon.

I miss you all